“Why is it when something wonderful happens it turns out to bite me instead? Why does this crap keep happening to me?”
I sat on my bed holding my blue journal wishing I could write about something wonderful happening to me without it turning to stab me in the back. My heart felt like it was in my throat, restricting my breathing. I keep gasping trying to suck through the lump in my throat so I can inhale air into my lungs. It releases. The tears come, streaming down my cheeks.
The silent voice is taunting me, “Stop it. You’re just feeling sorry for yourself!’
“Shut-up Shut-up!” I scream, sobbing breathlessly. “Just shut-up!”
My inner voice whispers, “People will disappoint you. It happens and there is nothing you can do to change it. Remember, you have to change yourself.”
Suddenly, my tears stop. That is true. I cannot change other people, I can only change myself. But, what is it that I need to change about myself?
In my concentration to figure out what I need to change, I remember these comforting words,
“Someday, your ship will come in.”
Sinking further into my pillow, I begin thinking about ‘my ship’.
~200 Words~
This story is submitted for the Sunday Photo Fiction challenge hosted by Sunday Photo Fiction. The challenge is to write a story of 200 words.
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BEAUTIFUL WORDS 
Wow! Beautiful and powerful story 😀 Great job!
Thank you for your encouraging support. I always hesitate to press that Publish button, feeling my writing is so inadequate. Thank you!! ((Hugs!)) xo
It is always hard to hit the Publish button but someone somewhere will appreciate that you did. Your writing is so good and keeps getting better every time! 😀
That is so wonderful to hear! I need to know that I am improving in order to keep writing. Thank you!! ((Hugs!)) xo
Yes, please keep writing! I love reading your stories 🙂 *hugs*
Thank you!! 🙂
I really like how you took the picture and turned it into a symbol for something else! Great job!
Thank you so much!! 🙂 (Hugs!) xo
Wonderful as always. 😊
Thank you so much! 🙂 (Hugs!) xo
Awesome written, Sis PJ! Indeed!
why you usually feel hesitate to push the publish button? 😊
I love your writing!
Thank you so much Eva! I hesitate because I feel my writing needs much improvement. But I know I can only improve as long as I write. Thank you so much for your encouragement. It means a lot to me. Peace & Love (hugs!) xo
I really like this. It felt as if you had written it as a personal message for me today. Thanks for the story! Hugs
Wow! I am happy to hear you felt like it was a message so hopefully, it was a happy message. 🙂 Thank you for reading!
((Hugs!))
Nicely done and for only two hundreds it says a lot
Thank you! 🙂 (I didn’t know if it would go over very well or not).
The style of writing makes it very easy to feel with the character. Although, I am feeling like I shouldn’t have read it. I had an experience recently that left me in a similar state. There is nice foreshadowing of rather whist full hope at the end too.
Yes, you are right. Wistful hope at the end. I based it on the way I have felt in the past and just dramatized it a little. Thanks for reading! 🙂
Dream BIG! 🙂
No kidding! I’ll make sure it is a cruise ship. LOL!!
These are the most powerful words of your writing “I cannot change other people, I can only change myself”
I like this strong message hidden in this simple story:)
Thank you so much! Thanks for reading and commenting! 🙂 xo
Thank you for commenting about the message in my writing for the Sunday Photo Fiction. It is a powerful message that I need to remind myself of often. This message was as much for me as it was for anyone else that might need to hear it. Thank you!!
Great writing! 🙂 And great twist on the ship. Visualizing that ship just might be what works for her. 🙂
Yes, true. Maybe that is what she needs is to refocus. Thanks for reading and commenting! Have a great week at work! I hope you will keep me updated about that problem you experienced. (Hugs!) xo
Great story… you really are talented 😉
Thank you Cat. I’m not sure about that though… I need lots more improvement! 🙂
I watch the improvements weekly, Joy
Thank you Cat. 🙂
May it happen sooner rather than later.
Thank you! Much appreciated! 🙂
What a fantastic way to use the image. I really like that. a very emotional story. I am guessing that from the way you describe that, it is from experience.
Thank you! Yes, more times than I can count. 🙂
Reminds me of a conversation I had when I split with someone.,
Them “There’s plenty more fish in the sea”
Me “I don’t want a fish, I want a dolphin.”
LOL! Did you also say, “Too bad you weren’t a dolphin.” Haha!
Haha no. Although a couple of months later when I found out that she had been cheating on my for a month or so before and had down for the previous few years, I did compare her to a killer whale hehe.
Yes! No kidding! Or a shark. 😀
Yep 😀 Although the woman I got with 2½ years later turned out to be a mental abusing man hating sociopath lol
Oh no! I hope you aren’t with her any longer!
I left her in 2010. Worst nine months of my life I think.
Well, at least it is behind you and you are the more wiser because of it. 🙂
I am indeed
Nicely told, Joy, with great description of emotions. Very realistic and well done. 🙂 — Suzanne
Thank you Suzanne! I feel honored getting a compliment like that from you. 🙂 Hugs! xo